LOVE AGAIN...

I was seeing a couple across the street. They were happy as a perfect couple. But were they married? Ohh! No they weren’t ….. I smiled. I never understood the meaning of this relationship and I don’t have time for that because my bus had arrived.

Bus was quite full of world, instead of that I got seat beside window. I hurried and sat there victoriously. It’s a long journey, but every time it became a voyage. A began to sail in my ocean of dreams, which was also my past.
” How could I tell her what she wants to hear?  Divorce.  I’d never thought that this day will come. I’d love her from the day I saw her. She was so innocent, pious and full of life.

I still remember how we get married. It was a big accident for and for me too. Marrying with me was just an adjustment for her and that was shock for me which I got after marriage. But it was me, my love which bring her to me. It took almost more then a year to break that Great Wall of China that was between us. And the life goes happily. I’d never thought that those dreams, those visions of her which I ignored, will become nightmare for me. I always praised them that they brought us together. Now they are parting us.”

Suddenly I was jerked. “ Bhaisahab… Indira coloney aa gaya”

I was there, standing alone with my broken life and peeping towards my home or house don’t know what to call it now.

I entered the house (its better to call it). I heard a giggle. I heard it somewhere. It was like…. It was like song…. A lullaby…. That I was used to….

I peeped into the room. And I stood there like an idiot, the same as I stood years before when I first saw her. She was also the same, again full of life.

 “How prettier she is still. Still pious and innocent just like that baby she is carrying in her hands. I have no courage to say those words ‘ I’m ready for divorce’. And why should I say? I don’t want divorce. All I want is this, what I’m seeing right now. My whole world. ”

They both were looking like angels, and this is my heaven.
Suddenly my heaven turned into a hell. I dropped the vase just next to me. She flinched and put the baby down and left the room without even seeing me. I reached to my angel, my beloved daughter.
We’ll never know how life changes. How to react sometimes? We should laugh or cry? How my best day of life turned to worst. I got promotion and became dady, and that same day I lost my wife. I thought she had lost her senses at first. But the bitter truth was, she had gained her senses. And I lost my world.

My in-laws told me then. She met an accident 3 years before our marriage and due injury on head she lost her data back up, means she remembered only few things about herself. They shifted to this town to make her easy. Where I met her and I was eager to marry her. She said yes just because of her parent’s pressure on her. After marriage her dreams and visions got reduced, which actually were her past memories. And as the doctors said there is no guarantee that her memory will come back. So my in-laws never bothered to tell me that.

Now I was complete stranger to my wife. And she was totally different person for me. She refused to accept me and our child. But her parents convinced her somehow.

 

“But I know she is not happy. Not happy with me. And I have no courage to build up whole castle again. And this time I’m alone. Previously I tried and she came to me. But this time, I’m leaving. I’ll tell her. I’ll. I’ll give you divorce, but I want my child. “

We sat on the dining table. When we done our dinner almost. I collected my strength, raised my voice and said “ I’m agree with divorce. You can have what ever you want but baby will live with me.”

She screamed with joy “ really”. And she went straight to another room. I just put my hand on face breathed in forcefully. I rubbed my eyes with finger tips. I followed her curiously, she was talking to baby softly with joy, suddenly she got somewhat serious.

I left from there. Entered my room, locked it from inside. Lay on bed, put pillow on my face so no one can see and hear my pain. How a person dies? How a person destroys his own life, with his own hands? How a person get defeat by himself? How he curse himself? How he get ruin………