Girl’s version

I was so happy. At last Sameer agreed for divorce. It was the best day. I’ll be free.

Whole day I sang, I danced. I was so happy that I wanted everything to be perfect. I wanted to make Sameer happy because he was setting me free. I entered his room, something was there that was so familiar. It was like, I was used to it. I sat on the bed and sighed. Room was well arranged, it was just like the room I wanted for me. Light blue curtains, old paintings, very artistic. Something dropped in kitchen. I flinched and said “ is that you m

Meera? “. She replied in yes. Meanwhile I dropped the pillow. While keeping it back, I saw an album there, might be it was below pillow. I started watching it. Album contained many snaps of me and Sameer. How many places were there that we went together? It was like I was seeing someone of my face. She was me, but I didn’t remember a single snap. I was deeply in thoughts, and amazed. Sameer harrumphed, he was standing at door. I stood up and was about to exit the room, suddenly he hold my hand. I chill ran through me, as I was a statue. He snatched album from my hand and relieved my hand. I breathed deeply and turned with questionable eyes. Before I opened the mouth, he said, “You must not see this…. You don’t need this anymore… “

I escaped from there. As I reached the kitchen, I remembered that he was early at home.

I went to him. As I was about to knock the door, I saw him there on bed with album embraced to his chest and his eyes were close but I clearly saw the pain on his face.

Days went on. Happiness was seemed to me a burden. Every time I saw him, I felt like culprit.

One day I decided to make him happy. So I made all the dishes he liked. At night he came home. He was really surprised. And I was glad. I saw him happy for the first time. After dinner we went on roof. We talked for hours under the brightened stars. Every thing was perfect, and then I uttered those words, which changed everything. “ I wish time will stop here, and we will be happy like this together and forever…. “

Sameer – “ I wish too…… but its only a wish….. and a broken dream... go to sleep now, its already too late… and remember day after tomorrow is important day….” He smiled and left.

I remained there alone with my question and that bitter truth. What I was doing and why?

I sat there whole night searching for truth, for future, for others and for me. My parents were still angry with me; they didn’t want to see me. But I knew they’ll accept me.

But could I live without angel? Why I was thinking so much? ……………………………………………………………………………………………………….

I opened my eyes in morning. I was on roof, wrapped in a blanket. I slept whole night on roof. May be this blanket was by Sameer. I heard sound of main gate. He went early in morning without seeing me. But why I was feeling so bad? Whole day I missed him. I slept while looking for him. Next day was the day of my freedom.

Again he went early, leaving a slip on dinning table “reach court at 12:00 o’clock. I’ll be there. “

I was in cab heading towards my dream, but why I was not happy? It was like I was losing something? I reached court. I was late. I entered the room. Every one glanced at me. I stepped towards the desk and stood beside him. He signed the paper. Now it was my turn. I was trembling there. My hands were shacking. Suddenly everything got blurred on the paper. I was astounded, I was crying. I hold breathe and turned towards Sameer. He was looking at me. I saw him for few seconds and lowered my sight. I just blurted the words, which I didn’t know where they came from.

“Being with me is a curse to you. You always see a stranger lies in your part. I never wanted to hurt you, but I always know that what ever I’ll do, I’ll end up in hurting you. I know it was too hard for you to be with me, because it is too hard for me too to be with whole new me. I can’t be the same previous person and I can’t try, because I don’t know that person anymore. I’m saying all this now, because I can’t take it anymore, its so burden on me that I can’t even breathe. I’ll try to be a good life partner but I can’t promise to be the one that I was. I don’t remember about past, our life, and our angel. But I can’t live without angel now. I’m not interested in my past anymore, I can listen all as a story. I can’t leave……. You……… It’s like I’m falling in LOVE with you again………”

(He hold my hands and smiled with wet eyes, and we came out of court) 

P.S.- It's my first story............... thanx ......... aapne jhela ise :)