♥ Love is always there ♥

 

That was the thanks giving day. We were at the coffee shop. That was the first time we met. You were having hot coffee with chocolate and I was with milkshake. Still don’t know how, but we stumble over each other? Seriously stumble over. How embarrassing that was? (Smiling) but would we met if we didn’t stumble over? Who would have known, that, that jerk will become my life? We greeted each other with couple of abuses and bunch of accuses. And then some angel again shoved me on you (that time that angel was another jerk for me). You held me this time and I’m not forgetting that you spilled chocolate coffee on me. How could I? It took really hard work to remove that stain. Finally I had to garbage my favorite t-shirt. So this time you held me, that’s where we are. And it was like fairy tale. As if I found my prince charming who will escape me from ugly witch, although there was no one. You pulled me up and got me on feet. And after that we laughed like fool. Amazing thing was no one was bothered about us. That shop was filled with crowd and everyone was busy with themselves. With sat on the corner bought new drinks and had conversation.
We liked each other. We dated. We watched movies. We bunked college. We roamed in park for hours. We played hide-n-seek with our friends. We broke-up many times, we patched up many times. We were about to elope. Remember ‘about to’ but our parents agreed. And our life went on ……………………

And now here we are standing in the middle of railway station. You are holding my hand because of too much crowd. I wish you were holding my hand not because you afraid that you would loose me. But I wish you were holding my hand just because you want me just beside you always. You are seeing on flash board worrying about journey. I wish you were seeing me right in eyes and just worrying about what would be the journey without me. Suddenly the train arrived. He leaves my hand. I got flinched and nervous. I was so afraid. As usual my eyes are wet. You have changed, your love have changed. Where did the grab go, that was when you first time held me?

But you put your hand across my waist. And you nudged me towards train as if we are one. I’m part of his. We broad on the train safely and seat well. Till this time he hasn’t once saw in my eyes. As we sit properly, he sees me with question – “Are you fine?”
and I just smile. And he smiled back with relief. I clearly can see that. He just stretches his arm on seat back and pulls me towards him. Now my head is on his shoulder and his head on mine. He sighs deeply. And I’m still smiling.
Some times what they give us is more precious than what we want from them. Some times you are unable to see love around you, but it is present there. You think your love had changed, but truth is, your way of seeing love got changed. Love is always there. Some times in kisses, some times in hugs, and some times just in a nudge. Believe in them and you. They will never let you go. They are just hugging you and you are safe there………………

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Girl’s version

I was so happy. At last Sameer agreed for divorce. It was the best day. I’ll be free.

Whole day I sang, I danced. I was so happy that I wanted everything to be perfect. I wanted to make Sameer happy because he was setting me free. I entered his room, something was there that was so familiar. It was like, I was used to it. I sat on the bed and sighed. Room was well arranged, it was just like the room I wanted for me. Light blue curtains, old paintings, very artistic. Something dropped in kitchen. I flinched and said “ is that you m

Meera? “. She replied in yes. Meanwhile I dropped the pillow. While keeping it back, I saw an album there, might be it was below pillow. I started watching it. Album contained many snaps of me and Sameer. How many places were there that we went together? It was like I was seeing someone of my face. She was me, but I didn’t remember a single snap. I was deeply in thoughts, and amazed. Sameer harrumphed, he was standing at door. I stood up and was about to exit the room, suddenly he hold my hand. I chill ran through me, as I was a statue. He snatched album from my hand and relieved my hand. I breathed deeply and turned with questionable eyes. Before I opened the mouth, he said, “You must not see this…. You don’t need this anymore… “

I escaped from there. As I reached the kitchen, I remembered that he was early at home.

I went to him. As I was about to knock the door, I saw him there on bed with album embraced to his chest and his eyes were close but I clearly saw the pain on his face.

Days went on. Happiness was seemed to me a burden. Every time I saw him, I felt like culprit.

One day I decided to make him happy. So I made all the dishes he liked. At night he came home. He was really surprised. And I was glad. I saw him happy for the first time. After dinner we went on roof. We talked for hours under the brightened stars. Every thing was perfect, and then I uttered those words, which changed everything. “ I wish time will stop here, and we will be happy like this together and forever…. “

Sameer – “ I wish too…… but its only a wish….. and a broken dream... go to sleep now, its already too late… and remember day after tomorrow is important day….” He smiled and left.

I remained there alone with my question and that bitter truth. What I was doing and why?

I sat there whole night searching for truth, for future, for others and for me. My parents were still angry with me; they didn’t want to see me. But I knew they’ll accept me.

But could I live without angel? Why I was thinking so much? ……………………………………………………………………………………………………….

I opened my eyes in morning. I was on roof, wrapped in a blanket. I slept whole night on roof. May be this blanket was by Sameer. I heard sound of main gate. He went early in morning without seeing me. But why I was feeling so bad? Whole day I missed him. I slept while looking for him. Next day was the day of my freedom.

Again he went early, leaving a slip on dinning table “reach court at 12:00 o’clock. I’ll be there. “

I was in cab heading towards my dream, but why I was not happy? It was like I was losing something? I reached court. I was late. I entered the room. Every one glanced at me. I stepped towards the desk and stood beside him. He signed the paper. Now it was my turn. I was trembling there. My hands were shacking. Suddenly everything got blurred on the paper. I was astounded, I was crying. I hold breathe and turned towards Sameer. He was looking at me. I saw him for few seconds and lowered my sight. I just blurted the words, which I didn’t know where they came from.

“Being with me is a curse to you. You always see a stranger lies in your part. I never wanted to hurt you, but I always know that what ever I’ll do, I’ll end up in hurting you. I know it was too hard for you to be with me, because it is too hard for me too to be with whole new me. I can’t be the same previous person and I can’t try, because I don’t know that person anymore. I’m saying all this now, because I can’t take it anymore, its so burden on me that I can’t even breathe. I’ll try to be a good life partner but I can’t promise to be the one that I was. I don’t remember about past, our life, and our angel. But I can’t live without angel now. I’m not interested in my past anymore, I can listen all as a story. I can’t leave……. You……… It’s like I’m falling in LOVE with you again………”

(He hold my hands and smiled with wet eyes, and we came out of court) 

P.S.- It's my first story............... thanx ......... aapne jhela ise :)   

LOVE AGAIN 2....

I saw her in my friend’s college. She was his batch mate and his professor’s daughter. I started visiting that college frequently. Then came a day when I convinced my father for marriage only with that girl.

We got married. Firstly I thought she was shy. But I was wrong. She actually ignored me, or say avoided me.

One day when we were slept. Suddenly she screamed and stood up. She was all wet, and was breathing heavily. I touched her shoulder gently. She turned and put her arms around my neck.

 I don’t know what to do. I was also in shock.

I put my hand on her head slowly and calmed her down. I really didn’t want her to get back. Instead of this I fetched a glass of water. She told me about the dreams.

From that day she was changing day by day. Everything was going fine. She started loving me. I still remember. How she had behaved like a girl who was not my wife. It was like first college love. Sometimes I had to thought, were we husband n wife?

How she got flinched, just with my touch. How she had to smile and ran away, when I caught her, seeing me.

After one year my Bauji expired. I was totally broke. She built me up. Her care, her love.

Her words, those she told me that night, when I was shattered.

Sameer… Our dear one comes and leave. Life never waits for anyone. I know you never saw your mom. All you had was your father. But we can’t change anything. If it is possible in anyway, I swear I make him come back. Whatever it cost. Because your smile is everything to me. You are my strength. But life must go on. Don’t make him feel bad. If you cry for him, how could he would be happy there. Does he ever want you to be sad just because of him? He was your father. He tried his best to be your mom n dad both. He loves you most. Don’t make this difficult for him. My dady says, never cry for dead people. They can’t go to heaven. So let him free, let him go with smile on your face. I’m with you and I always will. I will never leave you alone. Not till I’m dead. I never said this, but I love you and love you forever and ever. And she hugged me with wet eyes.  

I’m really missing her. The women who was sleeping in next room, wasn’t my wife. She was not my angel’s mother any more. I had to leave her. I had to free her. I had to let her go with smile on my face. Because I loved her, I love her and I will always love her forever and ever………..

LOVE AGAIN...

I was seeing a couple across the street. They were happy as a perfect couple. But were they married? Ohh! No they weren’t ….. I smiled. I never understood the meaning of this relationship and I don’t have time for that because my bus had arrived.

Bus was quite full of world, instead of that I got seat beside window. I hurried and sat there victoriously. It’s a long journey, but every time it became a voyage. A began to sail in my ocean of dreams, which was also my past.
” How could I tell her what she wants to hear?  Divorce.  I’d never thought that this day will come. I’d love her from the day I saw her. She was so innocent, pious and full of life.

I still remember how we get married. It was a big accident for and for me too. Marrying with me was just an adjustment for her and that was shock for me which I got after marriage. But it was me, my love which bring her to me. It took almost more then a year to break that Great Wall of China that was between us. And the life goes happily. I’d never thought that those dreams, those visions of her which I ignored, will become nightmare for me. I always praised them that they brought us together. Now they are parting us.”

Suddenly I was jerked. “ Bhaisahab… Indira coloney aa gaya”

I was there, standing alone with my broken life and peeping towards my home or house don’t know what to call it now.

I entered the house (its better to call it). I heard a giggle. I heard it somewhere. It was like…. It was like song…. A lullaby…. That I was used to….

I peeped into the room. And I stood there like an idiot, the same as I stood years before when I first saw her. She was also the same, again full of life.

 “How prettier she is still. Still pious and innocent just like that baby she is carrying in her hands. I have no courage to say those words ‘ I’m ready for divorce’. And why should I say? I don’t want divorce. All I want is this, what I’m seeing right now. My whole world. ”

They both were looking like angels, and this is my heaven.
Suddenly my heaven turned into a hell. I dropped the vase just next to me. She flinched and put the baby down and left the room without even seeing me. I reached to my angel, my beloved daughter.
We’ll never know how life changes. How to react sometimes? We should laugh or cry? How my best day of life turned to worst. I got promotion and became dady, and that same day I lost my wife. I thought she had lost her senses at first. But the bitter truth was, she had gained her senses. And I lost my world.

My in-laws told me then. She met an accident 3 years before our marriage and due injury on head she lost her data back up, means she remembered only few things about herself. They shifted to this town to make her easy. Where I met her and I was eager to marry her. She said yes just because of her parent’s pressure on her. After marriage her dreams and visions got reduced, which actually were her past memories. And as the doctors said there is no guarantee that her memory will come back. So my in-laws never bothered to tell me that.

Now I was complete stranger to my wife. And she was totally different person for me. She refused to accept me and our child. But her parents convinced her somehow.

 

“But I know she is not happy. Not happy with me. And I have no courage to build up whole castle again. And this time I’m alone. Previously I tried and she came to me. But this time, I’m leaving. I’ll tell her. I’ll. I’ll give you divorce, but I want my child. “

We sat on the dining table. When we done our dinner almost. I collected my strength, raised my voice and said “ I’m agree with divorce. You can have what ever you want but baby will live with me.”

She screamed with joy “ really”. And she went straight to another room. I just put my hand on face breathed in forcefully. I rubbed my eyes with finger tips. I followed her curiously, she was talking to baby softly with joy, suddenly she got somewhat serious.

I left from there. Entered my room, locked it from inside. Lay on bed, put pillow on my face so no one can see and hear my pain. How a person dies? How a person destroys his own life, with his own hands? How a person get defeat by himself? How he curse himself? How he get ruin………

My First Day

Sometimes.... You think... you are the one....
and then you realize suddenly.... you are one of them....

That sometime, comes sometimes...... and may change you sometime.... :P

Everytime I want to be the person, that my family doesn't want....
and that was real mystery, how I knew that...??
Again I'm doing same... action of rebellion....

I missed him again.... someone recalled him unknowingly.... :)
same story, vice-versa characters.... :)

and the story ends..... because I don't know, how to write a blog.....
thanks for giving your precious time....

P.S.- Next time you'll not disappoint...